the ones who would climb the monkey bars with me during the half hour before school got out every friday. the ones who would share their food with me at recess. the ones who moved to the other side of the country, and the ones who have yet to leave. the ones who don't seem to want to talk anymore, at all. the ones who are still angry. the ones who i could once go to for anything anytime and actually wanted to talk. the ones who would make me laugh all the time. the ones who slowly and at the same time quickly drifted apart from you and eventually became a stranger. the ones who, quite frankly, don't wanna be friends.
i told myself not to care so much when it came time to realize that some friends are just lost forever, but it sort of eats you up inside. when it comes to this, i don't know what to do or what to say. it's the one thing in life i feel utterly and completely helpless with. i've faced the challenges at school or at work or with jerks or with idiots that life's thrown at me, but this? can't do it. hidden emotions make it impossible.