Rough Week

Holly: The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?

Paul: Sure.

Holly: Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to Tiffany's. Calms me down right away. 

I had a post planned earlier this week, but tiring stuff happened. I found myself browsing the Tiffany's website for fun just now, and I thought of this quote. So I'm sharing it on my sad, lonely blog that I have been neglecting. 

Life is hard, but life is good.

Reminder:

Sometimes the things you do, or don't do, hurt more than you realize.
I must practice kindness and love.

Thoughts of the day

1. Lah dah dee diddum 
   Lah dah dee doom doo ditto 
   Dum doo lah dee doh 
2. I have the cutest niece of all time. 
3. Reheated BJ's skinny fries aren't bad. 
4. Don't want to write this paper.  Don't want to write this paper. 
5. How does my room manage to go from 0 to complete mess in 15 seconds?
6. I miss my best friend already. 

Trapped like a groundhog in snow.

I feel like I have been waiting for this day for months.  I honestly don't remember the last time I felt this antsy. Going on a total of 5 hours of sleep (3 hours at night + 2 hours during my nap in the library's basement).  I've been at school since 730 this morning, and I am stuck here until about 930 at night. THAT IS 14 HOURS.

I might just run to my car after my midterm.  There's a good chance that I will be overwhelmed with exhaustion, but it's more likely that the adrenaline rush from finally being able to leave school will help me get through the drive. That and I'll be blasting my to and from SD playlist.

Things I'm looking forward to doing when I'm finally home (in no particular order):
-hug my mom like there's no tomorrow
-read my letter from University of Sussex
-catch up with old friends
-have dinner with some good company
-go to church (I miss St. I)
-celebrate life and love with my best friend in the whole freaking world.

Yeah. It's gonna be a good weekend. :)

I am flawed and broken.
But He makes me want to be better.
It's comforting to know that after a long, tiring day like this
and an even longer day tomorrow,
that with the Lord, anything is possible.


O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive.
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Favorite

Yosemite HD from Project Yosemite on Vimeo.

This was definitely one of the most amazing time lapses that I've ever seen.  It wasn't until I watching it this might be the first summer in years that I'm not going to Yosemite to hike. I am hoping this will not be true. 

In case you didn't know.. giraffe.

I had way too much fun doing this.. Just call me another teenage girl who likes to play with light art.. cause it's freaking fun and I'm not ashamed of this. And let's ignore the fact that I haven't been a teenager for over a year.

Because..

(1) I just helped my friend redecorate her room, and it looked cute. So I wanted to redecorate mine. But I am too lazy/weak to move furniture around in my room, so this was the extent of my decorating.
(2) Looking at pictures of my favorite people helps with the homesickness and replaces it with a smiles.
(3) I printed approximately 100 pictures over break and needed a reason to justify getting so many.
(4) I had gotten relatively okay at posting almost every day and didn't want to skip my lazy Monday.

I did a night hike a couple nights ago up to Mt. Cowles, where there was a nice view of Lake Murray and Mexico in the distance. I had the opportunity to get a long exposure of prior to:

(a) Spraining my ankle
(b) Having a bunch of 11-year-old kids throw rocks down the mountain toward me

I have yet to decide if it was worth it.
I just want my ankle to heal quickly, so I can hike again.

Release

There are some things that I fear might always hurt. Others may not understand and view it as immature and trivial.  And in all honesty, so do I sometimes.

But like I've written before, you can't really control what (or who) hurts you and what doesn't. You sorta just have to learn to let things go. That's the hard part. Yet in the end, I have faith that someday I can be more accepting of people for who they are and be more grateful for what I have in life. It'll take work. And I'm willing to try.

"Loving people is hard. But I want to believe it's worth it, and your gentleness becomes a testimony to others." 

So far

-Slept in til 12:30 for the first time in a really long time.
-Had the chance to make myself a delicious breakfast with sunnyside up eggs
-Found out I got into the art class I need
-2 of my best friends might be coming to SD this weekend and a few next week!

I've only been awake for 2.5 hours, and there's so much in life to be grateful for.

I am happy.

I gotta be honest, today was rough. That last few days have been, actually. There were very little moments when I wasn't thinking about what task I needed to do next or where I needed to walk to. I found myself constantly scribbling notes and lists to myself on my pastel stack of post its that I keep in the front pocket of my bright blue backpack.

And throughout the day, all of it was just catching up with me. The frustration towards myself for sleeping in and missing class, the lack of relief I felt when finally turning in my papers, the sheer terror inside when telling my counselor that I don't know what I want to do yet when I graduate. There were moments when it honestly felt like too much.


I can't really explain it, but just minutes ago, I suddenly felt very excited for my future.

There's plenty to be scared of, but so much more to look forward to. And I think a lot of it has to do with the trust that I feel is slowly growing in God. I've never felt His love for me stronger than I feel at the present. And with that love, I trust I have for His plans magnifies in ways I've never felt before. He's given me an endless list of just plain good to smile about. How could I not have faith that He will provide it to me in the future? They may not be exactly what I had in mind, or seem ideal at the time, but He knows what's best.

I am happy for the wonderful people in my life.
I am happy for the opportunities laid in front of me. (I may or may not have just looked if I was using the grammatically correct form of lay in the past tense. I was right.)
I am happy for God's love and my ability to see it more in the everyday.


There's a lump in my throat that I can't really explain. It's similar to one I feel when I want to cry. It's possibly some leftover from when I was bawling my eyes out while watching 50/50 (amazing movie, btdubs). Or it could be my strange desire to cry at just how beautiful life is.

tl;dr I am happy.

Cravings

As most of my friends know already, I am someone who eats away her emotions and stress. And after the last few days along with the next  5 hours left at school, the list of food I am craving is slowly growing longer and unhealthier.

Currently craving:
-homemade salad
-brownies
-chocolate chip cookies
-Dr. Pepper
-chips & salsa
-sprinkled donut
-kettle chips
-churro
-Costco hot dog

Big Sur Post!

So this is super late, but I've finally found time to post the pictures. This past winter break, I went to Big Sur for the first time with some friends. I can honestly say without a bit of hesitation that this is one of the most beautiful places that I've ever seen. And it was incredibly nice to go there this past break, especially after thinking that I wouldn't be able to go for a few years. Above is the traditional picture of the falls at Julia Pfeiffer beach. When looking at what pictures to post, it was so hard to edit them down to a relatively decent amount.. so I didn't. :)

I must admit that if we had only seen the elephant seals, turned around, and gone home, I would've been happy.

This is the one picture that I actually took! (With the most confusing lens ever.)

This trip definitely called for a repeat in the future because only seeing these things once in my life is just not enough. The trip was packed with good company, too much food, beautiful hikes, and unforgettable sunsets (dolphin jumps and all).

Face Rock at Limekiln Beach

Good Start

Yesterday was my first official day classes I stayed on campus for over 14 hours. It was possibly one of the most productive days I have had in a really long time, and probably one of the best days of school so far in the year (besides the 45 minutes that one professor thought was needed to explain how she would use an iclicker in class).

-3 hours of class
-satisfied boba craving
-shipped out a book on amazon
-looked up info for a tutor
-3 more hours of class
-finished a lot of study abroad stuff
-looked into adding a minor
-dinner and catch up with my newest friend
-rather boring school event (but free Chic-Fil-A!! = success)

And today will also be pretty busy:
-meeting with a counselor to make sure I can add a minor still
-writing workshop
-second meeting with second counselor about studying abroad
-apply for a passport
-hopefully get home early enough to hike before the sun goes down
-hoooomework! boo.

"You've got to find what you love."

I know that I posted this video back in October, but I firmly believe there is no limit to how often can you watch it. 

I never really knew what I loved.
Still searching.

"I’m not bitter about what happened to me as a child, and my mother was instrumental in keeping me from being so. … She taught me to be grateful for my life regardless of what that entailed, and that’s directly related to the image of Christ on the cross and the example of sacrifice that he gave us. What she taught me is that the deliverance God offers you from pain is not no pain — it’s that the pain is actually a gift." - Stephen Colbert

Requests

It was brought to my attention tonight that if I go to England for summer school, then I could potentially attend the Olympics in London. Anddddd my prayers for me to go just multiplied by like a million.

Pray for me please, friends. :)

Melting

There's only 2 Disney songs that really just make my heart melt every time I listen to them, and this is one of them.  Honestly, I had my doubts about this movie for the longest time, but this scene won me over.  I can't even count how many times I've had it play over and over again on youtube.  My dream is to recreate it someday. :) 

Anyway, leaving for Big Sur tomorrow! 

To say I am excited is a big understatement.

"All at once everything is different, now that I see you."
Gaah, gotta go squeal like little girl now.. 

Twice

1. Listening to my priest tell us about how God called on him to serve.  And explaining to us that He calls on us each and every day in His own way. We just need to listen more.
2. Hearing about a son being reunited with his parents after having no contact for years.

There are times in life when I sit and attempt to comprehend the magnitude of God's love and just cry.  And I mean really cry.  Well, readers, I cried twice today.  And the conclusion during both times was clear. God is good, beautiful, unpredictable, loving, and just so much more.

Last week I found myself in tears, asking Him what He wanted of me.  Begging Him to show me the path He wants me to take and guide me in the right direction.  I must admit that it can be so difficult at times not knowing what God has planned for you and simply have faith that He will take care of you.  I still can't see exactly what He wants of me, and I have a feeling that I won't know for a while.

But I am so grateful to Him today for showing me that He has listened to me, and has reminded me of the fact that He has plans for me.  I just need to be patient, with open ears and an open heart.


Life is a beautiful thing, friends. 

"I rejoice heartily in the Lord, in my God is the joy of my soul." - Isaiah 61:10

Girly Posts pt. 3

Leave it to Tiffany's have the classiest ads. I love how much that beautiful blue box just pops out from the rest of the picture. Hahaha, I also love how no man will understand just how much or why girls love it so much. They just do. :) 

My reason? Okay, no one who reads this blog should even need my explanation...

Listening to classical music while studying cause I sing along and get distracted by all other songs, only to have the graduation march play...

Sequence of events

508: Get off the shuttle and realize that my car won't start.
513: Call AAA and ask for a jump start.
538: AAA gets to me. Get told that I'm incredibly lucky to have battery that lasted so long. Jump start and must drive to Sears to buy a new battery.
553: Call friends to find someone who can go with me in case my car dies again.
555: Vishal gets to me and we figure things out. I leave. He follows.
604: My car dies again. And I'm on the side of the road.
606: Call AAA again and ask for a tow.
607: Good Samaritan, whose dad happens to be a mechanic, helps me push the car out of traffic and teaches me how to take care of a battery in the future. Get told again that I was lucky to have a battery last so long. Even offers to change it for me.
643: Second visit from AAA. On our way to Sears. Again.
659: New battery ordered.
700: Kill time at the mall.
753: Car is done and I drive home very paranoid.
823: Being safe in my house never felt so good.


All of the times are actually quite accurate based on my call log. (And yeah, I went back and checked it for this post.)  That definitely went into my nap time.

Okay, time to study!

High Expectations.

Two more hours until my last class in finally over, and I can head home.  The anticipation is seriously killing me right now. And the four hours of sleep that I am going on definitely does not help at all. I will be surprised if I don't fall asleep at one point in class..

Okay, time to do some reading on the Abbey Road.
And then shamelessly nap in the library.



It's gonna be a good weekend.

Darwin Deez

By far the weirdest music video I've ever watched. Ever. But I do care because I really love the song. 

I kinda, really love the sound of raindrops hitting my window right now.

Second Time

Second time posting a cover of this song. Can you tell it's one of my favorite Disney songs?

Girly Post pt. 2?

So this is Mara, a wonderful person that I had the privilege of working with at Ruche and has her own fashion blog, M loves M.  Why am I posting about her? 

1. She's one of the most awesome and sweetest and most beautiful people I have ever met. 

2. Because I just watched this video from her wedding on her blog, and it was freaking cute. 

Seriously... this wedding was perfect. It's weird because the whole time I was watching that video, I kept seeing amazing details which led to me thinking, "Oh that's what I had brainstormed for my wedding someday far, far of in the future." No lie. From the gray suits for the guys to the garland hanging on the cake to the cookie table. 

So, Mara, if you ever read this. If you someday grace me with your presence at my wedding, I promise it wasn't just me copying you. :)

Better with Pie

This weekend was full of familiar faces, which was just what I needed.

Friday:
-No school = laziest day ever in pjs for the majority of it
-Concert in Downtown SD

Saturday:
-Second laziest day ever, which was definitely spent in the pjs again
-Started making Chistmas Cards cause I needed something crafty to do
-Watched over 2 discs worth of How I Met Your Mother
-Board games with the Phamily

Sunday:
-Brunch fail, but breakfast burritos were still delicious
-Bouldering in Santee
-Evening in Hillcrest

Yup.. it was a good one. And tomorrow I gotta get back to reality and do my best to study my butt off until December 7th.

Rainy Morning

The clock read 6:18AM, and it was freezing. I walked downstairs with an extra blanket in case you looked cold. But there you were, sleeping with the mouth hanging wide open and  looking as cozy as ever. I couldn't help but chuckle and walk back upstairs.

And even though I knew I'd have to say goodbye in a few hours, it was nice knowing that I would wake up later and see your face.  It was perfect.

FYI

Blue Valentine is not a good movie to watch when you've had a rough week and you're not feeling all that secure about things.

Scratch That

So in my 20 years, I've never had any known allergies. I could eat all of the food I wanted and didn't have to worry about certain lotions. Well, apparently I was wrong. In the last 24 hours at least approximately 9-18% of my body has been covered in a rash. (This is a rare occurrence on my blog where I am actually giving a somewhat accurate percentage of something based on my previous education in anatomy 4 years ago. That's a big deal.) I've gone through almost an entire tube of Benedryl lotion, and feel like I'm four with the chicken pox.

(Side story: I was going through my photo album a few years ago when I noticed one particular picture.. I wasn't a fan of it cause it showed how much of a chubster I was. And then it hit me that there were strange spots all over me. Yeah, my parents totally took a picture of me when I had the chicken pox. Why they wanted to do that, I do not know.)

And for those of you thinking it, no, I haven't eaten anything out of the ordinary or used any new lotions or shampoos. My only theory is that I am allergic to my laundry detergent and/or fabric softeners. So I'm off to Costco tomorrow to buy me some generic Kirkland brand stuff.

Moral of this seemingly useless story: It's never too late to learn something new about yourself.
But mostly I needed to complain about it.
I just don't want to be itchy anymore. :(


PS. I managed to tear up within the first 20 minutes of Blue Valentine. And it wasn't even about the main couple.

Rough: understatement of the day

I honestly don't think there's been a day when I've wanted to just give up more than today. Approximately 4 hours left at school, and then I may just proceed to eat all of my leftover candy from Halloween that contains chocolate. And there's a lot.


It's just one of those days.
"It's been a bad day. Another bad day.. and all I want to do is look at you and know I'm okay." 

Current Obsession

Stumbled across this artist from Poland who has these amazing watercolors that I have been gawking over for a while now. I don't know what it is about watercolors, but they might just be my favorite style of painting.  It sort of makes me reminiscent of the 8 color sets we would use in school as children, back when painting were simple and mostly consisted of rainbows and airplanes. It has this overall impressionistic feel while still holding a great amount of detail that most would people wouldn't necessarily expect in a watercolor. And I particularly love how some of the paintings use mostly dark, neutral tones with one bold color that stands out. 

Anyway, his names is Rafal Rudko, and more of his painting can be found on his deviant art page: http://kegriz.deviantart.com/

Nostalgia

See this made me really miss OCC.  Back when taking 4 classes didn't feel overwhelming, and I was still on the semester system, and I was still able to go to a Starbucks on campus. And I miss going to school with certain people.. er, person.

Interstate 5 & the Kooks

I feel like everyone has heard this song, but they have not all seen the music video yet.  It's definitely one of the most clever music videos I've seen in a while. So watch it. 

This was one fantastic weekend. I definitely needed to see familiar faces again, all while: 

-getting M&M donuts without having to wait in line

-taking a trip to Downtown Disney and hanging out in the California Grand Hotel

-having brunch with old coworkers

-working a whopping 2 hours 

-going thrift store shopping

-attending a 1950's themed mystery dinner

-going to church 

-eating In-n-out for the first time in months

-making my awesome Ewok costume
-giving someone a haircut for the first time

I've forgotten everything else I wanted to write about in this post.

edit: I remember what I was going to talk about. (It's only in the freaking title..) Holy crap, I really like the Kooks. I've had their stuff in my iPod for a while now, and they became my choice of artists for my drive back to San Diego.

So now for some cute overload: 

"Fly, you fools!"

I take costumes very seriously.

Pictures to come. :)

Every time something new stops working in my car, I feel like it just laughs at me a little. It's okay. I always thought that having windows that roll down in the front seat is overrated anyway.. not really.

Out of Shape.

Did my first solo hike today, which honestly wouldn't be considered much of a hike to most people.  But considering I haven't had any form of exercise since Mt. Whitney, I wasn't complaining. It was 3 miles round trip, and elevation was just over 1,500 feet. But I didn't care. I missed hiking, so anything would've made me happy.

The view was definitely the best part, and I wish this picture did it justice. You can see Lake Murray and some Islands in Mexico if you look hard enough. Someday, when I'm in good enough shape, find some shoes that actually fit me, and overcome my fear of running down steep hills, I'm hoping to be able to run up and down this within 30 minutes. Someday.




On another note: Yesterday marked the last valid day on my Disneyland pass. Definitely sad to know that I won't be able to go for a while, especially since I'm home every few weekends anyway. It was just really nice to go whenever I had a rough week and needed to de-stress. I miss the fireworks the most. I'm still hoping that I'll have the chance to sit outside of the parks with a cup of coffee and watch them on my next trip home.

Listening to the Revolver album put me in a weird mood. Luckily I have my bag chocolate beside my bed. 

Project Crochet

So since being in San Diego, I spent a lot of time sitting in front of the TV and crocheting.  (I love doing stuff like this, and if I could finally figure out a career where I could get paid to do this, I would.) After about a month or so of crocheting for hours and hours, I finally finished my very first blanket. I don't think I've ever been this proud of a project since I was a kid.  Sadly, I couldn't get a good picture of it laid out completely, but to give you an idea about how big it is, it basically covers the entire top of my twin size bed.

Next project: an R2D2 beanie! Luckily I already had most two of the color I needed left over from the blanket. Now I just need to find some scrap black and red yarn to finish up the details. If my Jawa costume doesn't work out for Halloween, this will be my backup.

Oh, Great Pumpkin, where are you?

I went to a pumpkin patch for the first time today! And after I had seen incredibly cute pictures of a friend who had gone to one where she was able to cut the pumpkins right off of the vines, I was incredibly excited to go. Well, friends, was not one of those pumpkin patches.. This was a tiny collection of pumpkins in a small parking lot in the ghetto of San Diego. Needless to say, we were rather disappointed.

But in the end, it's the company that mattered, and I definitely had good company. Just gotta keep looking on the bright side of life. My current bright side: I absolutely love everything about fall.

Change the weather, still together when it ends

Walking around school made me very happy today.
Why you ask?


Cause it's cloudy and freezing out,
and all of the girls are layering clothes and looking super cute.
Which means that it's finally fall!
And which also means I also get to pull out my scaves and tights and boots.

Most people who read this won't care,
but I do.
Cause it means I have something to look forward to when I get ready in the morning.



I love cold weather!

Beatles, Poduct Rules, & Monopolies

3 Midterms tomorrow, and I do not feel ready one bit.  I know I can pull this off, but I just need a break right now.  I honestly cannot wait for Tuesday, so I can do all of the things I've been wanting to do today including, but not limited to: 

-Sleeping in

-Picking up free things from the mall

-Reading my book that just came in the mail

-Pampering myself silly

-Baking something delicious

-Freaking finishing my blanket

-Cleaning my room 

-Applying to more jobs

-Going for a run

Caught My Ear

"Oh, there is no endless devotion,
that is free from the force of erosion.
Oh, and if you don't believein God,
how can you believe in love?
When we're all just matter that will one day scatter,
when peaceful the world lays us down."

"Peaceful, the World Lays Me Down" - Noah and the Whale

98 degree high

740AM: Wake up
805AM: Leave for school
900AM: Step off shuttle and walk to class
1002AM: Get hw help in Calculus Tutoring Lab
1106AM: Late for Info Session about studying abroad for Econ majors
1154AM: Survey to see if I'm depressed
1207PM: Find out I'm a happy person and get a Krispee Kreme donut
1230PM: Arrive for 2nd day at Internship
415PM: Head back to school
438PM: Nap in car
542PM: Suddenly self conscious about napping in car and give up on sleeping
617PM: Get to library and reddit to keep me sane
632PM: Finish 2 math problems
734PM: Work on note cards for music
916PM: Start walking to commuters lounge
956PM: Realize I'm in the wrong commuters lounge and walk across campus
1006PM: Work more on math with classmate
1136PM: Walk back across campus to shuttle
1232AM: Get home

Long day. I've been told (and have written here many times) that God gives you exactly enough time each day to get all of the important things done. I wonder how important He considers sleep...

Goodnight, world.

Goals for Tonight:

[x] Make study cards for Beatles Music class
[ ] Finish at least 2 more math problems, maybe even 3? Doubtful. It's hard.
[x] Make Facebook page for internship and take notes
[ ] Start studying for Econ midterm if there's time
[x] Take a shower
[x] Be in bed by 12 AM 12:30 (in the morning!) 


Huzzah for having all three of my midterms on the same Monday..


Updating as I go to keep me sane:
[8:30pm]  Ce n'est pas bon. Je peux aller fou après cette semaine.
[8:49pm] Oh-my-gosh-it's-so-hot-in-my-room-I-cannot-work-under-these-conditions!
[10:28pm] Math was impossible. Made plans to meet up with a classmate to get help. 
[11:10pm] Making new Facebook page and ish took a lot longer than expected... 

Wanderlust

The Fall Ruche Lookbook just came out on Monday, and it honestly breaks my heart to know that I couldn't be around to help out in some way for it. I hate when people use the word "eye - gasm" because it just doesn't sound clean or right. But seriously, the word just came to mind when I first got a sneak peak of the photos from this lookbook last week.  I love, love, love fall clothes and layering and cardigans and boots and mixing floral with sweaters and everything about this. It makes me think of Ruche's original style way back when, while still keeping up with the trends that you see happening today. Haha, secretly, it would be my dream come true to do a photoshoot at a train station, and considering the fact that that will probably never happen, I am so happy that Ruche had the opportunity to do it. 

 

I went a little crazy when I was choosing pictures for this post. There was just too many that I loved! Definitely one of my favorite shoots that Ruche has ever had, right under the Palm Springs/Joshua Tree shoot. Go look at the rest of it here! (For anyone who doesn't know what Ruche is, shame on you. How I like to describe it though: A cheaper, more affordable Anthropologie.)

Feeling Naked

It was my first weekend at home since I moved out, and I am kicking myself in the butt for not having pictures to show for it. But it was honestly an amazing weekend that included:

- water coloring with the niece.

- having my last Disneyland trip until I move back to OC or find someone to get me in free. 

- surprising a sweetheart. 

- sleeping in the most comfortable bed ever.

- catching up with the parents. 

- watching Ides of March. 

- taking day trip to Joshua Tree (my climbing is rusty).

- having a delicious dinner at Ruby's.

- going to church.

Overall, I had a fantastic time seeing the familiar faces that I missed so much. I just wish I hadn't left my camera back at home. It kinda, really makes me feel naked not having one. Anyway, since I don't have any awesome pictures to share, I'll leave you with this video. (I'm in a Beatles mood because of my class and this song reflects how I feel at the moment.) See you for Halloween, Orange County.

Scratch that..

Cause I'm totally still on the subject of this... But how could I forget that this song trumps all other songs? And yeah.. I'm playing the Ewan McGregor version cause.. c'mon. It's Ewan McGregor.

Oh, Frank..

So I may or may not have found the song that I will someday dance to at my wedding.  And most people will read this and think, "Okay, whatever. It's just one of her girl posts." But for over 7 years, I always believed that the song I would choose would be "The Way you Look Tonight."  I cannot really explain why this is such a big deal for me, but it just is.. It's a girl thing. 

Stay hungry, stay foolish..

"You've got to find what you love. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle." - Steve Jobs

3:21 AM

I can't sleep.

Words to live by:

"If there be therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affections and mercies, fulfill you my joy, that you be like minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind. Let nothing be done through strife or vain glory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than themselves. Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.

Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not a thing to be grasped to be equal with God:  but made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:  and being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.  Therefore God also has highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:  that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;  and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father."

Philippians 2:1-11

Because I haven't posted about San Diego yet..

So this is the view of the sunset that I get from my backyard almost every day. I must try to remember to make dinner early enough, so I can eat outside and enjoy my view more often. I am fond of it.

Sadly I haven't had the chance to go to the beach yet, except for one unfortunate morning where I ended up at the beach instead of school on accident.  I don't know why, but I have been sorely lacking in motivation to write anything, and right now is not much of an exception. So here is yet another list of conclusions I've come to while here:

- I do not like driving around La Jolla at night.
- I am apparently scared of cooking meat, so I tend to eat a lot of vegetables when I live on my own.
- I am a way bigger homebody that I thought I was.
- But I crave an adventure really badly.
- I cannot practice the harmonica for more than 30 minutes at a time because my lungs cannot handle it.
- I love to crochet, but at the same time I never want to crochet again. I will be done by Tuesday!
- I avoid freeways in San Diego, which means I avoid going practically anywhere.
- Looking for jobs sucks. A lot.
- The desire to travel while jobless sucks even more.



And here is where I would place a cover of "Journey through the Past" by James Mercer. But YouTube has blocked it. So here is the original by Neil Young instead. (Why have this song again when I've posted it before? Because in one day, I've watched three different documentaries, one of them being 180 degrees South, and I have fallen in love with the soundtrack.)

Found this from July 2009

him: Dear [insert her name here],

him: I am terribly tired and therefore must sleep in order to not be grumpy tomorrow

him: and although i miss you more than anything in the world

him: it's time to go take a bath and sleep

him: and you should do the same, minus tha bath. Well, maybe the bath too

him: I'll talk to you soon, since e

him: I will most certainly be bored at the thing tomorrow

him: please excuse my awful typing

him: I'm not particularly good as of late, due to my injuries

him: But I try

her: it's good for being injured

him: (don't interrupt my letter)

him: I digress. I hope you are doing well and will have a good night

him: sincerely,

him: [insert his name here]

him: xoxo

her:  Dear [Insert his name here],

her: Thank you so much for the letter.

her: I could write forever, but fear the thought of keeping you up too late with a long reply.

her: So forgive me if this may seem short or blunt in anyway.

her: Believe me, I do not wish to come off that way.

her: I wish terribly that we could stay up all night talking to each other, or better yet see each other.

her: Today, like all days when I do not see you, was rather tough.

her: Particularly today.

her: I don't know why.

her: But I do know that I miss you and look forward to tomorrow even more than you.

her: Because frankly, my dear, I'm awesome like that.

her: I hope you feel refreshed after your bath and sleep wonderfully.

her: This letter was longer after all.

her: My apologies.

her: Goodnight, dear.

her: Your's forever,

her: [Insert her name here]

him: Hahaha i don't think anyone would disagree

him: we're absolutely perfect for each other

him: :)

her: :)




Totally laughed when I read this.. 

In Town

I currently have this song on repeat right now thanks to the YouTube repeat.*  

Saying my goodbye even if it's so far from a real goodbye is taking its toll on me. Strangely, there's a surreal feeling behind all of it, because it won't fully hit me until I wake up in an unfamiliar bed that somehow belongs to me in a few days.  But as the cliche goes, it's the small things that make the biggest difference..

Like the last long talk in the car about every random subject possible,
or the little girl saying, "I'll miss you.." as you're getting ready to leave,
or your parents making you lunch one last time,
or the realization that you'll only see a comforting face through a computer screen for an indefinite amount of time.



Any consistent reader here knows that I really hate any form of change. And, in all honesty, an hour and a half drive that's less than 100 miles is practically nothing. This is probably very healthy for me cause it'll mean I can finally grow up and mature a little, especially considering how much there is for me to look forward to.  There's just so much good that I have grown accustomed to having around everyday. I'll most definitely miss it.

But here's to some new adventures.

This is my room...

And it's supposed to be all cleared out next week? Okay, I really don't think this will happen, but I am determined to at least be able to walk to my door without the fear of tripping by tomorrow night.

They're baaaack!

 

Someone get these kids some tissues. I honestly despise this song, so there's only so many times I can listen to it. But I really, really just wanna watch this on repeat and giggle to myself until bedtime.

Last Week's Highlights

So this was a rather freaking tiring couple weeks. I haven't really had the chance to let myself get a full night's sleep, and today is no exception cause I feel like blogging. It's hard to believe that I don't have to wake up on Monday morning at 7 to get ready for work. It's been an unforgettable experience, and I am so grateful for all of the knowledge, friendships, and memories I gained in the last year and a half.

The past few weeks were made up of:  Make shift magazine ad wrapping paper. Surprise gifts for the bosses. Oreos baked into chocolate chip cookies. Labor Day sales. Cleaning off my awesome desk. The first of many San Diego adventures. It's been good.

Sometimes...

Sometimes, I have a very strong urge to say, "Bi-yatch, please! I know what I'm doing.."
But I refrain.




:)

Fail

Finishing my 6th stripe on my blanket, only to decide that I hated the color scheme I chose and that I wanted 2 new colors. Sigh...

Labor Day

-slept in til 10:30 

-Chic-fil-a and ironic underwear

-watched a ton of Gilmore Girls and finished 2 rows of my blanket

-"that's a nice sweater" x 20
-matching Star Wars shirts 

-more Gilmore Girls and more crocheting 

-milk & cookies
-"okay, new blogger isn't so bad." 

In case anyone was wondering, I fit into Boys' large shirt at Old Navy. 

Good day. 

Question:

How do you ask someone to stop coughing in their hands, but rather into their elbows (as doctors and most of the world recommends) without sounding like a jerk?

I will not be happy if I get sick with the rest of the office.